Thailand in Need.
To all who may see this. Please help me with even a $1 donation to a very large cause I am trying to participate in. I am doing everything I can right now to raise money to get me to Thailand this summer to volunteer in raising endangered elephants, rebuilding schools, teaching children, and helping Thai communities live more sustainably. I would appreciate any help I can get, or even help spreading the word about my fundraiser. Please pass this on, and help me help the world. just click below to check out my fundraiser.
I know the things I wish I didn’t
I know that you will never have me as more than what I am to you now. And I know I wouldn’t have you either, but for some odd reason that really makes me sad. There is something about you I cannot quite put my finger on. You are wrong for me in every way possible, and I usually avoid guys like you. So why do I crave you, and why do I always want to know what your doing, and if you ever think about me? do you think about me? I wonder.
I know that I will never know the answer to these questions. And I feel like you will not go out of your way to hit me up to hang out. That has never been the case in the past anyway, so why would it be different now? Especially when we don’t even talk anymore and I live far away from you. Why does this make me uneasy? I want to know you, and I want you to know me.
I know that I’ll never show you who I really am. There is no chance for me to ever do so. Your’e too busy trying to figure out how to benefit yourself and make yourself feel better about yourself by claiming you have passion for things. But the way you are and the way you live contradicts everything you claim to be passionate about.
I know all of these things and yet I still want you. Its so messed up. Am I addicted to the things I know I cant have, and know I shouldn’t have even if I could have them? Quite possibly yes, and I know this too. But I cant help the way I feel and I only wish that you knew, but I would never tell you these things that I know.
I know these things, and I wish I didn’t, because then at least I would still have hope for the two of us.